What have you learned about yourself through blogging?
I learned a lot about that there’s other people out there who have the same interests and struggles that I do. I’m not this “island” of a person. I also learned that it’s better to not give a flying rat’s ass about what people think of what you do with your time on this earth or what you’re interested in. There’s always going to be someone out there judging you. Judging you for how you act, look, feel, talk, etc. I worried about that, all the time. It was exhausting.
Blogging helped me get out of that mindset. Write about what you want. How you want. When you want. I of course choose to stay away from touchy subjects for the sole reason of avoiding conflict as I mentioned yesterday, but I blog on my own terms to remember different things that have gone on in my life. I want to look back on this and be all, “Holy shit, I remember that!”
Does blogging bring out your best or worst self?
When there’s touchy subjects, I tend to get into a pretty ugly head space and not really care whose toes I’m stepping on. I get pretty rowdy about LGBT+ issues, and I find myself blasting religious extremists pretty often since their shitty negative opinions tend to piss me right the fuck off. I’m not even going to apologize for my “french” because it’s the truth.
But since I often don’t how to control my anger, I keep those kinds of things mostly to myself or write them down out of the public. I’ve written before about it publicly, but it just got really ugly. Since I’m a person that absolutely goes out of her way to avoid conflict, I find it a better option to just not say anything despite the fact that you just wanna knock some sense into a person.
Other than that, I’m mostly bringing out the best me and not the ugly, ARGH KITTY SMASH! me.
When or where do you feel most like yourself?
I don’t need a specific “when” or “where” to feel most like myself. I am always feeling like “me”! There’s some things that I’m interested in [like living a Dominant/submissive lifestyle or cosplay] that other folks may find “creepy” or “weird” but these are interests that make me, well….me! and I’m not about to change myself to make another person happy. What you see, is what you get, so you can either accept all my “creepy” and “weird” interests that make me myself, or you can please take an exit out of my life because I do not have room in it nor personal tolerance for negative folk.
How is your writing voice like you? How does your writing voice differ from you?
My writing voice is basically how I am in real life, occasional drop of the cuss words and all. However, I find my writing voice tends to be more open than my real voice. I tend to be more word-vomity online than I am in person because I actually organize all of my thoughts together easier online or in writing. I can easily point out, “That sounds like crap, let’s fix that.” when on the other hand, once it’s said in person, it’s been said and you can’t erase or edit.