[SJP] You Masochist

If SM is a part of your dynamic explain how pain works for you. Is it a sexual turn on, a healing release, a spiritual moment, a session of giving?

Depending on kind of headspace I happen to be in at the time, pain play can be a turn on or a release. Most of the time it’s a turn on, but there’s that rare moment when I’m like, “Can you just beat my ass? I need to get this shit out of my head.” It also helps stress relief on the Dominant side of the slash.

Most often than not, I’m asked if I find every bit of pain I get ends up being pleasurable? The short answer is a loud, “FUCK NO!” and the long answer is, “No, I do not soak my panties over stubbing my toe.” There is a boundary between “OMG. YES. PLEASE MORE.” and “OW FUCK THAT HURTS.”  for some people there is no boundary at all, and will find any kind of pain pleasurable but for me,  there’s definitely limits.

A spanking would be classified as “good” pain while stubbing my toe would be “bad” pain.

TMI Tuesday: Vacation


1) What mode of transportation do you prefer for vacation: a) car, b) bus, c) train, d) cruise ship, e) airplane, f) other?

A, B, and C so far. [I haven't been on a cruise ship or airplane....yet.]

2) What baggage strategy do you use when flying: a) carry-on only, b) gate check excess bags, c) check baggage, d) ship bags ahead, e) other?

E, I haven’t flown yet so I don’t know my strategy. I think it’s going to be carry-on only though, so many horror stories of lost luggage and shit.

3) What is your accommodation strategy: a) luxury hotel, b) bed and breakfast c) cheap hotel/motel, d) stay with family/friends, e) camping or RV, e) other?

C and soon to be E as we just purchased an RV. “cheap” to me is about $129/night, 3-star hotel.

4) What world-famous places have you visited on vacation? These can be commercial tourist attractions (Disney World), museums (The Louvre), historic places (Gettysburg), natural wonders (Yellowstone, Yosemite), or anything else?

Does Colonial Williamsburg and HersheyPark count? We’ve also been to Sesame Place when I was like….four.

5) Where do you really, really want to go someday?

New Zealand, for Hobbiton tours. Hell yes.

6) What you would you like to go back to see again?

Whale sightings in Maine. That was awesome.

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[SJP] Identity

Do you identify as submissive or slave or something entirely different? What is your definition for that identity?

Making stupid poses for a selfie.

I’m a submissive through and through. I have times where I am required to take on a Dominant mindset, but I will not “switch” in a sexual way. I do not have it in me to “take control” of another.

I can take on many s-type roles though, however.

I am 90% a kittygirl, 5% babygirl (or little) and 5% bottom. These percentages can fluctuate daily depending on my mood and are never ‘set in stone’.

My kittygirl and babygirl sides are treated in a non-sexual way, but there are times where I will utter the fact that I’m horny as being ‘in heat’ if that makes sense? Other kitty antics are headbutting, hopping into laps to curl up, sprawling out in a sunbeam and batting shiny objects to name a few.

My little side is the one that enjoys cuddling, colouring, fatally cute things, singing obnoxiously loudly to Disney songs, squealing and being called ‘babygirl’.

My bottom side is the one that gets all the rough and tumble sex play. So when it comes to playtime, the percentages would of course shift here. My kitten side might come up in biting, nipping, growling, and purrs.  My littlegirl side would crop up when I need aftercare.

I have a masochistic streak that needs regular bites, nips, scratches and spankings.

I like being able to ‘be on top’ but still under control.

I can be a bit of a smartass as well as a brat, however, I don’t brat to get a beating. I brat because I’m just fuckin’ around. I know how far I can go before I have to back my ass up or I won’t get ANY kind of play and I’ll be sent to the naughty girl corner.

‘course, there’s so much more to my personal identity, but this is a good chunk of it.

Photo Blog #003

Prompts Filled: Hobby

On Tuesday, The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug‘s DVD released, and the binge watching began. It’s gunna be lovingly abused until There & Back Again comes out in theaters, where I’ll be bringing a truckload of tissues and probably start an electrical fire due to my surplus of tears.

I’m beginning Operation: Clear Skin for another round of cosplay photos. I have a particularly nasty whitehead under my left eye that needs to take a hike off my face. In come St. Ives Apricot scrub. Stuff is awesome I tell you.  I just have to keep my hands busy because it’s a force of habit to touch my face.

Yesterday we went to a Blueclaws game, it was alright I guess. They ended up losing and I was cold. The fireworks were nice, though, albeit quite loud [I forgot earplugs so I had to hold my ears the entire time...] and my eyes were bugging out. [Too bright, too loud. Double whammy.]